I can't believe I just started this dumb blog. I just wanted to write. But I didn't want to use a pen and paper. Silly, isn't it? Yes. I didn't even come up with a cool name or anything. Random Writings? Wow, that was so creative. I'm sure I'm the only person on the entire internet to have THAT blog name! Way to go, Emily! But I guess I am in the cool crowd now, because blogging is the thing to do these days.
Lately, I have not had my priorities straight. I have not been taking care of myself, either. I waste time, I sit around and do nothing, I eat like the world is ending... It's just been awful. Well. I am determined to make yesterday the last day that I do that. (Most of you [wait, who am I kidding, NOBODY else is really going to take any amount of time to read this] are now thinking, yeah, she wastes time because she is blogging! Well, I will have you know that I have done mostly everything I wanted to get done today. Except fix my own hair. So, ha!) I am determined now to carefully watch what I eat, work out every day, get things done around my house, and most importantly, get closer to Christ, Whom I have drifted terribly far away from in the last few months of my life.
Now I know I probably lost a few of you nonexistent readers with that last part. ''Ope. She's talking about Jesus now! Next!'' is what you are saying, and you know what? That's too bad. My relationship with Jesus Christ is the most important thing about my life, and I am very ashamed that I have been ignoring Him for a while. What good is calling yourself a Christian when you don't even talk to Him? Today, for the first time in a while, I picked up a Bible (I say ''a'' Bible because it wasn't mine, it was one of my husband's, and the closest one I could find at the moment.) after praying a long, long prayer, and began reading my favorite chapter of my favorite book, Isaiah 40. God is so big. Every time I read this, I feel like I was slapped in the face for ever worrying about anything in my life. After praying and reading, I felt good. I mean, I felt GOOD. He is going to help me. He wants to be close to me, He wants to help me be the best I can be for Him. He never left. I did. I was wandering all around doing my own thing, which is so stupid and temporal. I love that whenever I realize how far away I am, He always willingly and readily accepts me back in.
Now that was pretty random, I went off on a bunch of tangents there. Anywho. Here is my new game plan. God first, then others, then me. It will be so much easier to not be lazy when I remember my purpose in life! It will also be easier to take care of myself when I remember that I'm here for a reason. Lots of you will think that this post had absolutely no point, but it does to me. I had an epiphany last night. It continued on today. I need motivation to keep going.
I need to lose 30 pounds to get healthy again. (I know, cringe.) I am counting on God to get me there, with the help of counting calories and my Jillian Michaels dvd. You guys know what I mean. I can't just sit on the couch and expect God to shave 30 pounds off of me. I am just trusting that He will help me get to where I need to be. Which is closer to Him, healthily serving Him.
I guess this is the end of my first blog post. This may be the only one I ever write! If it is, oh well. If it isn't, then until next time...
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